My Brain

Ok, so over my life, one thing I have learned about myself is that I have an extraordinarily over-analytical brain. It can be great at times, but it's very easy for me to become stuck inside my own head. So I figured, blogging about it might give me some relief and, if your interested, you can read about some of the nonsense that goes on up there. I've always loved writing and tend to be much better with written words rather than speaking. Most of my life consists of me trying to figure out the basic questions that tend to arise as one gets older: Who am I? What is the meaning of life? How should I live my life? How can I improve my life? Where is God? How can I know Him more? Who is He in my life? Who am I in Him. etc. Yah know- the basics. But for real, I love Jesus. I do my best to try to learn and know Him more everyday. On my own, I'm not very good at this. It's funny how I need Christ to know Christ. I know that I constantly stumble, that I am constantly defiant, that I am as stubborn as sin, that I am broken beyond comprehension, and that I have a fickle and worried mind that frequently takes my eyes off of my Savior. I also know that it is ok. I know that my life is in the hands of the one who created life. I know that I am loved despite my disobedience. I know that I everyday I am in desperate need of the Great I Am. I am His. I am His beloved daughter. I am part of His Joy. And I want to share that. I want people to grasp some inkling of who my Great Love is. I want people to be able to look at my life and see a reflection of Jesus. I'm not perfect. I'm so far from it. And yet, so close. Because I do have a Perfect Father who has created a perfect home for his children, a perfect eternity within my very soul. And I want you to know who He is. I'm not going to pretend otherwise. Of course, I respect all opinions and am merely sharing my own. So if you want to read- great! If you disagree, great! If you have questions, sweet! This blog probably won't be that interesting but maybe my Father can use some portion of this for His glory. That is all I can ask and pray for. So yeah, we'll see how this goes.